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today thrs oni 4 designers came to work....cuz the others had been working overnite for damn cimb bank...i din join them cuz i went to da shooting and was damn tired.....when i walked in da office dis morning....saw one of my colleague sleep on da sofa summore.....sigh...feels like im so useless.....i shud hv helped them too.....but i stayed do far...u thk shud i move out? my colleague hv been asking me da same question too.....they said im staying too far....

sumtimes i really feel like i cant help them much....im d oni female designer in da bunch.....sumtimes i feel like my design not good enuf...but sumtimes its really good....im jz not consistent enuf...it really stress me out when da boss wanna c my design....my heart wud pump real fast.....

am i lazy?no....

am i ignorant? no..
if they ask me to help them i really can.....i hv no problem helping them....doin work til late nite...i adi expected it since da day i stepped into dis industry...

am i weak? no....im not weak....i always tend to feel dat my colleague tot dat im a weak person .....dat i cant handle all da late nite work or watso ever....jz let me try and ill let u know.....im a strong person too....

now im so bored in da off ...no one to talk to......waiting for da boss to come bk to c my design oni........:(....shud i change to another company? i dunno....but i really enjoy alot working here...i learned alot...